Monday, 28 May 2012


Bernard James / Bernard Arana a.k.a BJ is actually a friend of mine years ago and I do know how good he is when it comes to web designing. And because I need to have a website on my own, I asked him if he could create one for me. The conversation went fine and had agreed on the price. I immediately bought my domain name and the web host provider that way he could start my personal website whenever he's free. See? I didn't gave him any deadlines or anything. I told him that he could start it whenever he's ready and that was back in december 2011. Sent him my partial payment worth 5,000 pesos via his friend's paypal account in the name of Romivil Cayabyab Jr. carrying the paypal account He, Bernard James Arana, confirmed that he got the payment and promised me that he'll give me the layout a week after. Sent him emails since then until last week and I heared nothing, also texted him and called him and no feedback from him. He's eating my patience so I published in my facebook account his name and he deleted his FB account. It only shows that he has bad motives and has no plans of giving me back my money. Why run away if you're serious? If you're reading this blog MR. BERNARD JAMES ARANA, why not send me a note saying if you want to continue to work with me or not and I'll hire somebody else. You destroyed the trust I gave you and the friendship we had. May God bless you.

Beware people and spread it to your friends, that way there'll be no other victim. I hate people who love to fool around  his fellows. Here are his infos:

PHONE :+63 9165136042 
                                            EMAIL :

Here's the proof of transaction that he got the payment via his friend's paypal account and his friend, himself confirmed that he forwarded my payment to MR. ARANA



Sunday, 27 May 2012

Depression Strikes Again

I feel down once again even if I don't have to. Haaay, this passion of mine is really testing my patience and these stupid people around me all the time. Why can't they just accept it and be happy for me instead? I've been trying to fight this battle since the last quarter of 2011 and it's the same thing. Sometimes, I feel like giving up already and thinks that maybe it doesn't belong to me. Hubby keeps on encouranging me and has been so patience on me. I express my anger in him even if he's not involve. I'm unfair and I know that but this is very difficult for me. I love what I do and it makes me happy but people around me are against with my passion. Why? And why? I need to see signs if I'll continue or I'll give up this project. For the mean time, I'll go buy for Clear Globe String lights at my fave online store. Please show me the sign so soon coz I need to make a rapid decision.

Saturday, 26 May 2012

A Year Now

I'm happy that hubby stops smoking cigarette but instead, he uses the electric one. I didn't pushed him to stop but he, himself, decided to do it. It's been a year now and seriously, he looks healthier and brighter eversince. It costs us less as well coz the liquids are much cheaper compared to the real cigarette. I even bought a pack of cigars at and tried to ask him if he's interested but he doesn't like it. The choice is to give it to my friend's hubby who loves cigars.

Saturday 9: Self Esteem

1. How was your self esteem growing up? - good and fine. sometimes it's down in certain situations and it's normal

 2. Do you ever have a hard time with morals? - yes especially when i'm angry with somebody or at something

3. Do you eat in bed? If yes, what? - no, it's not my habit and it's forbidden to eat in bed, that's our rules here at home

 4. What was the last movie you hated and why? - hated? hmmmm a show and not a movie but i cannot tell you guys what show it was here

 5. Have you ever felt that you lost it all? If yes, explain. - yes and that was last year. let's just say that last quarter of last year was really my worst time coz i felt like i lost everything coz of this person who tried to destroy me and still continues to do it. i'm not gonna say which field but the thing is, she makes bad stories of me to my friends and to everyone and yet all the things she tells them about me are absolutely untrue. now, i try to keep myself away from anyone and separate my private life and my passion life let's say. i'm quite and their bad feedbacks encourage me more to improve myself in this passion field. one day, i'll surprise them that i know how to play a guitar too hahahahha

 6. Have you ever been stalked? - yes, for a week

 7. Do you believe in 'self help' for problems, or do you prefer therapy? - last year, i simply did self help. i did things that makes me happy and finally, i found out that make-up brushes and eyeshadow palettes make me feel better.

 8. What celebrity do you think should make a run for office? - hmmmmm

 9. Do you believe in happy endings? (We do. That why this is the last question!) - yes

Saturday, 5 May 2012

I'm Getting This

I might get gps tracking from anytime soon. I find it practical and very helpful. My friends told me that many times coz they got it for their kids and for themselves too. This small box will help me locate where my car is and alerts me when I exceeded the speed limit. This is what I need as my personal control especially during summer.